I shouldn't have done that..

"God Of This City" led by Chris Tomlin and written by Bluetree

You're the God of this city, You're the King of these people
You're the Lord of this nation, You are
You're the Light in this darkness, You're the Hope to the hopeless
You're the Peace to the restless, You are

There is no one like our God, there is no one like our God

For greater things have yet to come, and greater things are still to be done in this city
Greater things have yet to come, and greater things are still to be done in this city

Greater things have yet to come, and greater things are still to be done here

Earlier this day, before I went to sleep, I buzzed in Ate Dana to check on her. I forgot that she is a full time worker and that whenever you talk to a full time worker, it's either you'll have something to do or you're doomed (exaggerated:)). As I've said, I talked to Ate Dana and she became a blessing. She told me to make a video for talk 5 for Kasangga Retreat. How surprising, doesn't she know that I don't do those stuff? Anyway, I now how to use the movie maker and a little bit of premiere so I agreed. The hard part is, I have to sarch for my own materials. CRAP! So, here I am, looking for pictures. Good thing the audio material is already given. I pray that I'll have an idea when I get up later.

Prayer Time..

At the Cross

Oh Lord You've searched me
You know my way
Even when I fail You
I know You love me

Your holy presence
Surrounding me
In every season
I know You love me
I know You love me

At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was shed for me
There's no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now

You go before me
You shield my way
Your hand upholds me
I know You love me

At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was shed for me
There's no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now?(x2)

You tore the veil
You made a way
When You said that it is done(x2)

And when the earth fades
Falls from my eyes
And You stand before me
I know You love me
Oh.. I know You love me

At the cross I bow my knee
Where your blood was shed for me
There's no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now?(x2)

You tore the veil
You made a way
When You said that it is done(x4)

Lord, we are experiencing typhoon right now. Many people are affected by the storm. Many are dying, starving and are loosing hope. Today Lord, I have learned that every people are just the same when it comes to Your perception. When You say we'll die, we'll die with just one snap of Your finger. I have learned that there are no places on this earth where we can hide from Your power. The good part is, there is no way we can get away from Your guidance, from Your love.

"33: But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things shall be yours as well. 34: "Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Let the day's own trouble be sufficient for the day."

Today, I have learned that truelly nothing is really important in this world. And that Your family, friend, properties and luxury don't really matter in your life. The most important thing in this world is that you have a good relationship with God. And that you have a strong belief in His power that everything will be just fine as you abandon everything for Him.

Before, when I was just starting in this service (YFC), I have heard of this matter for like a lot of times. Leaders and coordinators here and there would always say this lines to us in order for us to be active and do our part in our service. As time pass by, the essence of this saying deteriorates in my heart, or just in my mind for it was not really in my heart. The fact that I do things with excellence, I really don't know if I am motivated by this.

And then I tried to go back to where I started. To what am I doing. To where am I going. To how did it all happen.

I don't have those kind of stories, of success stories that really from worst to good. I don't have stories that are shocking. I am just a girl, raised in a fine family. Very fine, if I may say. My family is God-fearing. We don't have problems like the usual family problem of having a black-sheep, of having a drug addicted parents/sibling. As I have said, we are a very fine family.

Four years ago, I became a Youth for Christ member. After 5 months, I was already a chapter head. And this is where my never-ending journey began.

Four years, I have been serving God for four years straight. Ever since I started, I have never stopped. Many times did my parents, although God-fearing, always tell me to stop serving God through YFC, but I didn't. It was my way of abandoning it all for the sake of the call.=)

I disobeyed my parents, I lost my scholarship, I have flunking grades. I thought these were all forms of abandoning it all for the sake of having a good relationship with God. I was wrong.

I came to learn that these were all wrong through reading a certain book. I forgot its title but it really struck me. Things like these, that I have done were all forms of like denouncing our God, of like justifying our faith in the wrong way.

But just as we disobey our parents, just as we stop excelling in our studies, just as we do things without excellence, it is the same as serving without faith. We are like living dead. We do things that are not in the proper way.

True service is giving God our all. But in the right manner. In the little-est ways like obeying our parents, doing the best for your studies and being excellent in everything that we do while we are serving God.

Gospel for the Day..

• First Reading - 2 Chr 24:17-25
  17 And after the death of Joiada, the princes of Juda went in, and worshipped the king: and he was soothed by their services and hearkened to them. 18 And they forsook the temple of the Lord the God of their fathers, and served groves and idols, and wrath came upon Juda and Jerusalem for this sin. 19 And he sent prophets to them to bring them back to the Lord, and they would not give ear when they testified against them. 20 The spirit of God then came upon Zacharias the son of Joiada the priest, and he stood in the sight of the people, and said to them: Thus saith the Lord God: Why transgress you the commandment of the Lord which will not be for your good, and have forsaken the Lord, to make him forsake you? 21 And they gathered themselves together against him, and stoned him at the king's commandment in the court of the house of the Lord. 22 And king Joas did not remember the kindness that Joiada his father had done to him, but killed his son. And when he died, he said: The Lord see, and require it. 23 And when a year was come about, the army of Syria came up against him: and they came to Juda and Jerusalem, and killed all the princes of the people, and they sent all the spoils to the king of Damascus. 24 And whereas there came a very small number of the Syrians, the Lord delivered into their hands an infinite multitude, because they had forsaken the Lord the God of their fathers: and on Joas they executed shameful judgments. 25 And departing they left him in great diseases: and his servants rose up against him, for revenge of the blood of the son of Joiada the priest, and they slew him in his bed, and he died: and they buried him in the city of David, but not in the sepulchres of the kings.
  
  
• Psalm - Ps 89:4-5, 29-30, 31-32, 33-34
  4 I have made a covenant with my elect: I have sworn to David my servant: 5 Thy seed will I settle for ever. And I will build up thy throne unto generation and generation. 29 I will keep my mercy for him for ever: and my covenant faithful to him. 30 And I will make his seed to endure for evermore: and his throne as the days of heaven. 31 And if his children forsake my law, and walk not in my judgments: 32 If they profane my justices: and keep not my commandments: 33 I will visit their iniquities with a rod and their sins with stripes. 34 But my mercy I will not take away from him: nor will I suffer my truth to fail.
  
  
• Gospel - Mt 6:24-34
  24: "No one can serve two masters; for either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and mammon. 25: "Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you shall eat or what you shall drink, nor about your body, what you shall put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26: Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27: And which of you by being anxious can add one cubit to his span of life? 28: And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they neither toil nor spin; 29: yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30: But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O men of little faith? 31: Therefore do not be anxious, saying, `What shall we eat?' or `What shall we drink?' or `What shall we wear?' 32: For the Gentiles seek all these things; and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. 33: But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things shall be yours as well. 34: "Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Let the day's own trouble be sufficient for the day.