Last Sunday, I joined in the household of my other SFC sisters. The topic was LOVING THE UNLOVABLE. One of the questions was, What is your big blessing?
Over the course of the summer, I feel like I am not getting any blessing. I flunked 12 units of my units enrolled which leaves me a vulnerable heart and a dismissed status. I was really devastated. But I couldn't react in a proper way, if there is any proper way to react on this. I was not thinking because if I would, I would lash out on anyone. My mom was the regular recipient of my lashing out because she always asks me about my future plans. You see, I am not the persons that wants to be rushed. I want to do things, my way. I want to do things at my own phase, regardless if people would say that I am kind of slow or I seem that I don't have a plan. And I don't like revealing my plan. You see, I don't like to be understood. I like complications. I'm complicated that way. :D
Anyway, as I was pondering about my big blessing, I stumbled upon the fact that I am appealing in my 3rd year. There is a policy in my school that dismisses a student if he/she failed more than half of the units enrolled. But there is an appeal, and they will still allow you to enroll with a condition that you pass all the subjects that you will enroll in that semester.
I realized that I am blessed that the Lord waited for me to get to 3rd year to punish me. I know I did not do everything that I need to do in order to pass. But this time, I am determined to do it. I am determined to pass it and to take on the real responsibility of this career that I am pursuing. Thank you Lord!
