Because I knew you, I have been changed for good..

You don't realize it do you? You are selfish. Akala mo lang mabait ka sa ginagawa mong pagtahimik but all that does to me is build up all the hatred and hurt. My heart has been pushed to brim. Nasagad na respeto, pasensya at pagmamahal mo sakin pero di mo naisip na sa tagal mo na ko sinasaktan, bumabalik pa rin ako. Tama ka, dapat una pa lang ginawa mo na 'to para hindi na tayo umabot sa puntong to. Hindi mo narirealize yung mali mo kc palagi kong inaako ang kasalanan kung bakit tayo nagaaway. I hope you'll realize that you are selfish, you only think of yourself and what will benefit you. One way sex and staying silent,  do not mean selfless ka. Selfish ka because you don't want others to penetrate your thoughts and heart. Your respect, I have never felt it. There are other things to do in a relationship other than sex. You have redetermined the meaning of 'i miss you'. Telling me you miss me means you want to fuck me. Pag nakuha mo na, you are good for a long period until that itch comes back  and you'll miss me again. And I will just always be there because I'm just waiting for you to look at me, REALLY LOOK AT ME. When I tell you I miss you, nothing there involves sex. I longed for your heart. I longed for your soul. I have been wondering when will you let my soul out. When will you allow my mind to speak. When will you want to see me, get to know me, see the real me. When will I see you, the real you. So this is you? It's still scary but I still want you. I still want to peel all your layers and get to your core and still love you even in the process of hurting and losing a grip of myself. I love you. I have never imagined I could be selfless and be capable of this immense love for another person other than myself. You have been finding all your exes' faults in me but you can't yet you managed to find a greater fault that will end us.  Have I ever made you feel that you are never enough? Have I ever compared you with anyone? Have I ever made you feel insecure? I am consistent with my personality from the start. I am emotional. And I express how I really feel with words in an attempt to make you understand how I felt at times you hurt me. But you can't understand because you refuse to. In all our fights, were you able to think if you had caused the fight. Why am I so emotional? What triggered our fights? What caused me to tick? You weren't able, weren't you? You are self absorbed. You preferred the comfort of all the things you believe and standards you set for yourself to determine how they will treat you. If it's not in your checklist, it's unacceptable.

You are right. We don't need each other in our lives. I have to learn the extent of my capability to love and give in a hard way but I hope someday, you will realize that your selfisness, stubborness,  lack of empathy and fear of the light caused ALL your relationships to go down the drain. I will miss you. Because I knew you, I have been changed for good.

P.S. Seriously, keep the bar materials for now and send them back after the bar. If I wiĺl trust anyone to use its full potential, it's you. Please, grant me this one last request.