Goals

Now that I can walk properly, I have goals that I must achieve. I tweeted that this year I would be able to run whenever I want and my goal is to end this year with a 10 km run. But first, I have to train my legs since I can't run and have not exactly been walking properly for almost 10 years. On March 9, there's a BTS run. I think my sister would be interested. I plan to take a 3 km run first. Maybe by May, I could do the 5km run already.

I also want to be able to climb a mountain this year. I'm not yet sure how I would do it though but I know some people who might be able to help.

I also want to travel. A local trip and at least an international trip. I want to see and do so many things.

But I need to work. In order to have time and money, I need to do it online.

I am very grateful. I feel like Ariel when she had legs and Belle when she saw THE library. I'm so excited!

Trust. Big word.

Alam mo ba kung bakit big deal sakin na wala kang tiwala sakin? Nung una, natatakot ako na baka makahanap ka ng iba na kakayanin mong magtiwala ulit. Sabi mo mahal mo ko. Pero paano pag dumating yung taong kakayanin mo magtiwala at mahal mo na, pano na ko? But that was selfish of me. Mas hindi ko pala kaya yung thought na hindi mo na kakayanin magtiwala at all. Sabi mo hindi ka gumagawa ng move to damage our relationship. Hindi ka nakikipagmingle sa mga taong pwedeng maging threat satin. But I think that's wrong. All the more na dapat ka makipagmingle and kindly let them down because you are committed to me or baka mahanap mo yung taong para sayo. Nasabi mo na sakin na hindi mo na ko mahal, that you don't feel lucky to be with me. Those are just different words but what you're really trying to say is that you are no longer happy. You always felt that you've wronged me and that explaining yourself to me became a burden to you. Wala akong dinemand sayo kahit kelan. Oras at atensyon mo lang. Na parang sobrang hirap para sayo na ibigay. You once told me that I am your queen. Anong nangyari hon? But then, hindi okay, but I will get over it. Sorry.

I can walk again..

For a very long time, I can't walk normally. I can't walk properly. I have this dragging feeling on the left side of my body. I feel like a huge burden is in my holders. Literally. I finally went to the chiropractor yesterday. After some questions and assessments, the diagnosis was I have problem in my lower back and neck and that I had to go through Decompression, Correction and Dry Needling.

The Decompression was a procedure where they are pulling my spine and realign it again so that the 'gel' between them stops hitting some nerves that caused my discomfort in moving and walking. They too my weight, I forgot to ask why though. Then they had me lie down in a medical bed and strapped me in then had my legs up. I felt the pulling but it was not painful, it just felt like normal pull, like someone is pulling your head. After it, I felt much better, like a lot of weight was shed off the left side of my body

After that, I underwent a procedure called Correction. The chiropractor cracked my neck and spine to correct my posture. He also did some pulling to realign my legs because apparently, my left leg is really longer than my right leg. I felt very much unburdened at that time. It was like I was carrying so much weight on my shoulders. He didn't even touched my shoulders, just  my neck and spine.

Then I went through Dry Needling. According to Google, Dry needling, also known as myofascial trigger point dry needling,^[1][2][3][4] is the use of either solid filiform needles or hollow-core hypodermic needles for therapy of muscle pain, including pain related to myofascial pain syndrome. Dry needling is sometimes also known as intramuscular stimulation (IMS).^[1]

Chinese style tendinomuscular acupuncture relies on careful palpation of what are called "Ah Shi" points, which often correspond to both trigger points and/or motor points in the myofascial tissue. Chinese style tendinomuscular acupuncture tends to use lower gauge (thicker) needles necessary for puncturing contraction knots with a high degree of precision. On the other hand, lighter styles of acupuncture, such as Japanese style, and many American styles, may tend towards very shallow insertions of higher gauge (thinner) needles. Most acupuncture styles, especially those with lighter techniques, require a detailed knowledge, not only of anatomy but also of the channel networks and connections. Thus, while some forms of acupuncture are not at all the same as dry needling, the term dry needling can refer quite specifically to what is now called Myofascial Acupuncture, Tendinomuscular Acupuncture, or some version of Sports Acupuncture.

The procedure was not that painful for me, but the painfulness varies upon the age and pain tolerance. The physical therapist did my lower back and neck. She said this was to release some tension in my muscle that weren't caught in the other procedures I have undergone.

Today, I feel more inn control with y body. I feel excited whenever I can do things that I was not able to do for a very long time. Earlier, I tried going down the stairs like how normal people would do it. I was able to do it. But my father warned me to not over do it because I might wear off my body. 

As of this writing, I am sitting straight up, I don't have back pains and I don't feel tingling in my hands. I still look down because I got to it but apparently my Nystagmus i also cured but I have a poor eyesight so I still wear the glasses.

Btw, the earphones and weighing scale I ordered was delivered today. It's an exciting day! I'm looking forward to walking and running whenever I want to and do the things that I can't do before especially, the things that I have to do.