Dilemma

So, yes, I have disaffiliated recently with my fraternity. Well, technically, one cannot disaffiliate from a fraternity but then, I regard what I did as such.

I am sad and devastated. Mourning, as you may call it. I never imagined that I would be doing this. Well I did. So what I can do is to stand firm with my decision.

Anyway, I've been thinking about things. A lot of things actually. One of these is law school. I have been beyond lazy when the semester has started. I feel tired. Why is that? I don't feel like reading anything. I don't feel like going to school except on Thursdays.

Maybe it's just now, next year, when classes resume, I would regain my stance.

I do love law school, you know.

Awkward!

I got a call from someone earlier. I did not expect him to call me again after I disaffiliated. He initiated the call, but since I am using a different phone when he called, I missed it. So I called him back, only to find out that he would make it seem like I was the one who made the call first. Hahaha! I don't want to talk to him anyway. The call was awkward, but I managed to deviate the awkwardness into something professional. Never gonna call him again! I never intended to, when I have already made up my mind and heart to disaffiliate.:D

Yes, I am having a hard time moving on. But I know I will, eventually. I want to leave everything in the past. It's a good thing the year is just ending and I am happy that I am with my community again.

My mom said, the reason why I decided to disaffiliate is because RIGHTEOUSNESS has already taken over the WRONGNESS in me. Right and Wrong is not balanced, as what they (org)has always thought us. Maybe she's right. Maybe. I don't know. But I have made up my mind. I am never coming back.

I am not yet feeling it, but I know I will be happy eventually.