I think it's time.

Lord, pa-order na po ng love life.

Bente kwatro anyos na ako this year, hindi pa ako nagkakaboyfriend. Wala naman ding manliigaw. Hindi ko alam Kung bakit? Hindi naman ako pangit, yun ang tingin ko. Nung mga nakakaraang taon, hindi naman big deal sa akin ang magkalovelife. It still is not a big deal at all until now because I still trust the Lord for His wonderful plan on my love life.

But I feel that I am ready na. Hahaha! I'm not getting any younger, I also want to have a family. Most of the men and women of my age are already experiencing love and getting married and are already making a family of their own. I am not ready for family life yet. But I know being in a relationship would help me.

"Family Night"

Tonight's a family night! Hahaha!

No, this is not with my biological family. I am with my 'pseudo' family. Ever since I disaffiliated, and ended up with my SFC community again, I always spend my Saturday nights with my SBG (Samahang Binuo ni God) family. But when the Christmas vacation ended and everybody has to go back to work and school, and Icay and Jan finally have jobs, the chances of becoming complete has been slim.

I was always there because I allot my Saturday nights to be my resting night. And I also learned that you cannot bury yourself in the mounds of work you have, you know what matters and relationships matter to me, as becoming a lawyer is.

Tonight, I had dinner with my pseudo son, Zeph, my pseudo brother, Tim and his pseudo daughter, Icay at Alex's. It was not the first time that it was only the four of us that went to eat out. Our other friends tell us that we look like a family because the family members are complete, they don't want to disturb our 'family time'.

You see, Icay and Zeph are in a relationship. Tim has a girlfriend. And me, I have a crush on Tim. Well, awkward right? Hahaha!

I don't know why I'm blogging this. Maybe because I'm a little 'kilig' over the fact that Tim s mine during those times. Hahaha! Call me 'ilusyonada' or what, but WTH, I'm happy during those times okay? Hahaha!