Help me.. (randomness)

I've been feeling lonely and depressed lately. It's because I can't stop holding on to the past and everything's been crazy lately.

I've been into an aweful lot of issues lately. Issues about friendship, Lovelife and family that are making my nerves explode..

What are my issues anyway? It's so random, I just can't seem to elaborate about it anymore.

Lately, a lot of people are asking me to tell them about what's really happening with me. Well, to tell them frankly, I don't know either.

Here are random thoughts from what happening with me:

*Some friends aren't really true all..
*I am doubtful..
*I am inlove to a friend..
*I am hurting so much that I don't know what's/who's really hurting me..
*I am jealous..
*I am envious..
*I am sad because of these..
*I don't know now how to be happy..
*I feel that I am mean and bitchy..
*I am a world-class plastic..
*I am not me anymore..
*I don't know what's happening..
*I'm lost..
*I can't express what's happening..
*I don't know what I know..
*I can't seem to find or remember what I've learned..
*I'm angry..
*I'm afraid..
*I'm hopeless..
*I'm frustrated..
*I'm weird..
*I don't know what to do..
*I think I need help but I don't know what kind of help..


and the list goes on..