Today, my thoughts burst..

‎"Hindi na ko matatakot, hindi na ko manghihinayang. Kung talagang nakatakda kang tumagal at manatili sa buhay ko, hindi tayo magkakahiwalay kahit anong mangyari." 

Lagi akong natatakot mag-isa. Sabi ng karamihan, magpakatotoo ka lang. Oh well, nagpapakatotoo ako pero kapag may pumuna na sa akin na nakakasakit na ko sa paraan ng pananalita ko dahil hindi daw ako marunong magpreno, hindi daw ako marunong magdahandahan sa pananalita, dun ako lumalayo at hindi ko na naipapakita yung totoong ako. 

Oo, my words may be harsh sometimes, siguro nga di ako marunong magpreno, siguro nga hindi ako nagiisip kung makakasakit ba ko sa mga salita ko, pero para sa akin, nagagawa ko yun dahil yun ako. Gusto ko lang malayang makakilos at makapagsalita sa mga kaibigan ko dahil hinding hindi naman talaga ako magsasabi ng makakasakit sa kaibigan ko intentionally. Kung kaibigan talaga kita, alam mo ng ganyan ako magsalita talaga.

Let us meet soon.

"Romantic ba ang maghabulan sa ulan?" #walanghanggan

I know, he's somewhere out there. The person that would make me fall in love. The person that will sweep me of my feet. The person I am going to love for the rest of my life. The one that I would spend the rest of my life with. I know, God has an amazing plan for me. He has great plans for my love life. And He's writing the greatest story ever.

But sometimes, I can't help but wonder, where is he? Where is this man? I don't want to sound impatient, but sometimes, I can't help but ask myself, when will I meet him? When will I feel that joy and happiness that comes from romantic love. The kind that is not unrequited but the kind that is mutual. I've never felt it. Or maybe, I miss it. I miss that feeling. I miss the feeling of being mutually in love.

Lord, maybe it's not yet the right time for us (love of my life) to meet, but I pray that you keep us both safe. Give us the strength, courage and patience to wait. I know, You are still writing our love story and You will be most pleased if it would be played well by us. I pray that you keep my hands full of knowledge and learnings as I wait for him. Grant me the patience I need till we meet. I long for his love, and maybe, just maybe, he longs for my love too. So please Lord, let us meet soon so our happiness and joy will overflow and that may we also give glory and justice to the love story that is Your plan. Amen.

Nagseselos ako!

Nagseselos ako! Bakit hnd ko alam? Bakit hnd mo ko nilapitan? Pakiramdam ko wala ako nung mga panahong kailangan mo ko, or hindi mo tlga ako kinailangan.:( Naiinis ako na si regie lang yung kasama mo. Naiinis ako na hindi mo sinabi sa akin nung mga panahon na kailangan mo pala ng kaibigan!

Alam mo yung pakiramdam na miss na miss na kita. Lapit ako ng lapit sayo. Kinakamusta ka. Sabi mo sa akin okay ka lang, tapos ganito, hindi ka pala okay. Nalulungkot naman ako kasi hindi mo ko naconsider na pagsabihan, na takbuhan. Nakakalungkot kasi mahal na mahal kita. Alam mo naman yan eh. Miss na miss na kita. Madami ng nagbago, pero di ko inaasahan na pati pagkakaibigan din natin. :(