Mahal na mahal.

Mahal kita hon. Mahal na mahal. Wag mo pagdudahan yun please? Hindi ko problema yung time, di ka naman nagkukulang dun. Alam kong busy ka. And I am grateful na may oras ka sakin despite the many things that you have to do. Ang sakin lang, be sensitive at times. Hindi lang ikaw ang stressed at pagod. Mas matindi nga lang yung sayo kumpara sakin but still, stress pa rin yun. May mga times that I'll be too stressed that I can't listen to you release your stress or make you feel loved and appreciated but that doesn't mean I don't love you. I have so much love to give, enough for the both of us. But at times, when the stress is too much, I want to feel loved by you too. Sorry, I know I can be very difficult to love and understand. Please, don't give up on me.

Wow. Ikaw na talaga.

I will love you, I will love you, and I will love you

“I promise to love you:
at 6am when you’re waking to go to work, to school, or whatever road life takes you on, and when you didn’t sleep well, your hair is a mess, and your eyes are sleepy.
at 8am when we say goodbye for the day and you’re rushing out the door with a cup of tea and your car keys in the other hand.
at 5pm when you’re exhausted from the day and people have worn you out and you feel like crying, and falling asleep and escaping from everything. I will kiss your forehead, and wrap myself in your arms.
at 10pm when you’re heading to bed, even though you won’t sleep for hours. Especially when we become a human knot wrapped up in sheets and kisses.
at 3am when loneliness and sadness do not destroy you, but consume you and when you weep without an explanation, I’ll kiss your lips softly and tell you you’re the absolute best and that things will be better soon
I will love you when you grow old, and I will love you after that. I will love you if I’m no longer here. I will love you, I will love you, and I will love you.”
—@rs.goal

Umayos ka.

Sabi ko na, sakin mo nanaman ibabaling ang sisi eh. Putangina, kung gusto mo na patulan yang office mate mo, go ahead. Handa ka naman na dati pa na mawala ako sa buhay mo db? Hindi lang ikaw ang pagod at stressed. Umayos ka.

Hot, intelligent bad ass and kick ass lawyer

Kinaya ko, in 7 months, ibalik yung katawan ko, 4 yrs ago. Mabagal kasi di ako makapagworkout. May 5 months pa bago matapos ang taon. I hope I can achieve my body goal for this year, tapos next year, achieve my ultimate goal, hot, intelligent bad ass and kick ass lawyer by june!

I miss you but you can't know

Dear you,

Alam mo ba, pag naiisip kita, dati, sobrang saya ko, pero lately, masaya pa rin naman ako pero naiiyak na 'ko. Nasisira focus ko. Pinipilit ko naman wag ka na maisip kaso ang hirap. Lalo na pag pagod na ko at may masakit sakin o malungkot na ko o stressed na ko tapos ikaw lang yung gusto ko makaalam pero ngayon ayoko na malaman mo kc ayoko dumagdag sa stress mo. Miss na kita. Sana andito ka sa tabi ko ngayon.

In his eyes..

She is, indeed, different from the rest.

He sees in her, the person, not just the name, not just the words, not just the hobbies and interests, but the thoughts and emotions.

He describes her as one of a kind.

She is not much into emotional stuffs, which he thinks, is not common in the femme world. She watches romantic movies, to accompany her single girlfriends, reads romantic pocketbooks, but he doubts if these satisfy her want or she reads it just to see if the books can trigger in her the same emotions shared by her girlfriends.

He knows that she loves reading so much, but from his observation, it seems that her main reason is to gather some thoughts,more perspectives, more ideas, it can always be proven by the way she engages herself in a conversation, not so emotional, but more logical.

She, oftenly seeks the reason and the logic for an action or decision, well, he thinks that she has that mastery of her emotions… but she always says, its not always that she wins over herself. There are also times of downfalls, but she tries her best to minimize it.

If at times, an action or decision seems more of emotional urge than the logical one, she never let her tongue do the judgement right away. She welcomes everything as she says that we have differences, and understanding should always bridge the gap.

She can stay and sit for number of hours in the park observing people. She can sit for a day interacting with nature by feeling the sunshine and staring with the goldness of the sky as the sun bids goodbye. She can lie down at the field staring at the moon and amazed by the beauty of the stars.

She is not much into expensive apparels, nor impressed with the financial stability of the guy. She does not weigh the value of the person on where he dates her, nor if he pays for everything. She is always willing to give her share, and never fails to see the principles ruling him. She is, indeed, independent.

A date with her can be considered more of talk of the minds, than talk of the hearts. She reveals her thoughts on different topics, even those we oftenly ignores as they appear something very usual to capture or bug our minds, but it does, at least with her.

She even breaks the silence during a coffee date by answering her ringing phone to attend to a friend who is in need of her opinion or advice. He is totally amazed. How come a very silent person can earn all the trust and confidence in this world, without trying so hard, without pleasing them… for simply being herself…

She even breaks in him big jokes. That make him laugh so hard, and even give him a sudden frown. For behind her joke is the sad message, a bite of reality that most of us totally ignore.

People may not understand her, for she doesnt explain her side. But for a reason he does not know, he understands her. There’s this something they name as “connection”, and that damn great feeling sweeps him everytime that his thought is in unity with her. The presence of that hope that they can be soulmates, or more.

She is different. For she doesnt speak much of her emotions regarding the mishaps, tragedies and disasters. She keeps her lips in silence and with her hands into action. Yes, she doesnt weep, but she will see to it, that her hands are extended and in reach of the victims. She is a woman of deeds and not of words…

She’s uncommon. Proving questions are thrown in him that, at times, he thinks that she is gauging his logical abilities. But not really. She just want to know his thoughts on issues. She wants to know more so she can understand. She is just checking on the other side of the coin. Several times that he failed to see where their conversations would lead, or if ever it will end, but he ends up unaware of the enjoyment it brings. That he already spent number of hours “making love” with her mind. He can stay up the whole night discussing things with her, an open communication on worthy topics.

She’s distinct. She may not be the typical sweet girl who whispers the sweetest phrases in this world. Whenever he asks her why seldom she speaks of sweet nothings, she would always answer that she is just concern and doesnt want him to be diabetic. Afterwards, she would laugh. Her laughters is the sweetest music he can ever heard. Her sweetness is enveloped. She always say that he needs to dig more, to think more, because its healthy for the memory. So he will avoid alzheimers that may eventually strike her off his mind. She is indeed sweet, in a very different way. She wont even tell him how thankful she is to have him around nor wont let him feel that he is her Adonis. But despite all of these, she can make things balanced. She understands the weeping and the jealousy of the flightless bird. That she can make him feel that they can both fly. That they can achieve something as individuals or ass partners. That he can always stand everytime he falls. She sees and accepts even his flaws, and makes way and encourages to bring out the best in him. She believes in him.

She can make him feel secured even if he’s not by her side, for she is not the type who can be easily swept by the sweet words. Who doesnt easily believe in words. She doesnt seek her happiness and worth into someone else’s life. She finds it within her. If she would love, you can not question her, for she can totally distinguish love from need. She knows that love is sharing and not a mantle to cover up the emptiness inside.

Maturity, sincerity and priorities are her checkpoints before she starts the fire. For she sees relationship as something that should be long term, and not a medication for the loneliness or emptiness.

She knows when to stop, when to let go and when to start, when to drop the cowardice and when to fight for love…

She is peculiar, sui generis.

This girl is not easy to find, and he believes that it would take him another lifetime to meet someone like her again. He needed to break the wall to have her.

But it’s all worth it… she’s that girl he will always be proud of, to be the definition of his life…