Iintindihin pa rin.

Gusto ko lang naman na sabihin mong mahal mo pa rin ako. Na ako pa rin. Ako lang ang babae sa buhay mo. Na wala kang iba. Ako lang ang gusto mo. Pero wala. Wala eh. Busy ka, malamang di mo napansin yun. Nagaaway na tayo, trabaho pa din inuuna mo. I love and hate that about you. Hay.

I miss you everyday.

“I miss you when something really good happens, cause you’re the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, cause you’re the one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh & cry, ‘cause I know that you’re the one that makes my laughter grow & tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you the most when I lie awake at night, & think of all the wonderful times that we spent with each other.”

Like George Clooney.

Today, I decided to give another shot. Pagod na ko umiyak, malungkot at mastress sa mga shortcomings nya kaya titigilan ko muna ang pagiging emotional at magpapakarobot muna ako. Wala naman ako magagawa kasi kelangan nya talagang gawin yun. Hindi ko pa naman sya kaya ipareview. Iintindihin at mamahalin ko nalang sya. I will shut down emotionally. Like George Clooney.

Coming soon..

"You leaving wasn’t the end of the world. I thought it was. that day you left, I thought it was the end of the world. but I eventually stopped crying and I got up off the floor and I woke up the next morning. it was not the end of the world, the sun had not exploded, nor had the continents been swallowed by the ocean.

I thought you leaving was the end of the world, and maybe it was, in a way. you leaving was the end of that world, that world with you and me in it, together. I think that world still exists, just not here. but in this world I got out of bed and chose to wore a blue shirt and shorts and I made myself cereal for breakfast and when I checked my phone and I didn’t have a text from you, it felt like the end of the world all over again.

I cannot tell you how many times it felt like the end of the world, like when I saw your face again and there was a vacant of feeling. I went home that day and I cried so hard I forgot to breathe. but I got up again and washed my face and I took my medicine and I went on with my life because the world doesn’t stop just because you broke my heart. the world doesn’t work that way. if your heart is broken that is your problem and you have to find a way to make your own chest stop burning because the earth is going to keep revolving around the sun and time doesn’t have sympathy for anyone."

Mahal na mahal.

Mahal kita hon. Mahal na mahal. Wag mo pagdudahan yun please? Hindi ko problema yung time, di ka naman nagkukulang dun. Alam kong busy ka. And I am grateful na may oras ka sakin despite the many things that you have to do. Ang sakin lang, be sensitive at times. Hindi lang ikaw ang stressed at pagod. Mas matindi nga lang yung sayo kumpara sakin but still, stress pa rin yun. May mga times that I'll be too stressed that I can't listen to you release your stress or make you feel loved and appreciated but that doesn't mean I don't love you. I have so much love to give, enough for the both of us. But at times, when the stress is too much, I want to feel loved by you too. Sorry, I know I can be very difficult to love and understand. Please, don't give up on me.

Wow. Ikaw na talaga.

I will love you, I will love you, and I will love you

“I promise to love you:
at 6am when you’re waking to go to work, to school, or whatever road life takes you on, and when you didn’t sleep well, your hair is a mess, and your eyes are sleepy.
at 8am when we say goodbye for the day and you’re rushing out the door with a cup of tea and your car keys in the other hand.
at 5pm when you’re exhausted from the day and people have worn you out and you feel like crying, and falling asleep and escaping from everything. I will kiss your forehead, and wrap myself in your arms.
at 10pm when you’re heading to bed, even though you won’t sleep for hours. Especially when we become a human knot wrapped up in sheets and kisses.
at 3am when loneliness and sadness do not destroy you, but consume you and when you weep without an explanation, I’ll kiss your lips softly and tell you you’re the absolute best and that things will be better soon
I will love you when you grow old, and I will love you after that. I will love you if I’m no longer here. I will love you, I will love you, and I will love you.”
—@rs.goal