30 Days of Me - Day 5

San Agustin Church

I have this goal that I want to visit all the churches in the Philippines. I am not fond of going to side trips and leisure time but when I go to a place, I want to visit their church too.

When I was visiting churches during bar review, I fell in love with San Agustin Church's interior. It still has that spanish feel. I can't forget that a rat crossed the altar in the middle of the mass and the people seemed unfazed.

It was also in this church that I had thought of my wedding. Of course it's impossible because I am in a same-sex relationship. I love Ian so much and I refuse to believe that I can love another more than her.

30 days of me - Day 4

A habit you wish you didn't have

Hm. This is a tough one. I have a hard time defining my bad habits these days. But I think it's my being too emotional. I get upset easily. I absorb negative energy from others. Sometimes, I don't know if what I'm feeling are my real emotions or something I picked up from someone. The emotions get too intense when I have my period. I wish I don't have it since I have a habit of making decisions through my emotions because of it. I say things I don't really mean.

I think I am improving though. The key to changing a bad habit is to be aware of it and knowing how you can change it. I think I am more rational now. I think thoroughly before I act. Except when I have my period, my emotions tend to get the best of me. 😂✌

30 Days of me - Day 3

We don't really have a cat. Stray lang yan tapos inampon na ni Mama. I want to have my own one day, when I have my own apartment or house.

30 days of me - Day 2

The Meaning Behind your Blogname

Purple Hearts are Love

I've liked the color purple since time immemorial. Violet, actually. I don't know why. But I'm always drawn to the color. It's got that elegant and regal vibe. Plus, I think it's the color of my aura. 😉

Heart, I love hearts. I think it's because I am in love with life and am always in love. And it's the symbol of love! 💜

30 days of me - Day 1

Found this on Pinterest and thought of giving it a try. I don't want to post it on Social Media though. 😉

15 interesting facts about me. (If these were even interesting. 😂😂😂)

1. I have a Law Degree.
2. I am a middle child.
3. I forgive easily. (As in kausapin mo lang ako, parang walang nangyari.)
4. Medyo gullible ako. 😂✌
5. I love sweets! (Who doesn't? WHY?!)
6. I actually wanted to be a newscaster before I wanted to be a lawyer.
7. I love reading and writing. (Then came Law School. Haha)
8. I am always inlove. (Not always with a person, though.)
9. I took up English Journalism, Public Speaking and Debate classes in high school.
10. I had 3 past relationships.
11. I love anything related to wedding.
12. I still yearn for doing creative stuff.
13. I still want to be a technical director.
14. I want to have my own coffee shop someday.
15. I love cats.

Like you.

I’m sorry I ran away.
I’m sorry I didn’t wait,
like I normally do.
I just know better now.
I’ve learned that waiting for boys like you
means that I’ll be left alone
while you go on with your own life
because you won’t come back.

I know that if you don’t try now,
you won’t try again later.
You’ll just disappear.
I’ll only be another memory — another girl.

You may wonder about me,
you may occasionally miss me,
you may ask about me
but you will never love me.

Because boys like you don’t really love,
boys like you only know how to take.
They can’t just give their all,
they can only give bits and pieces.

But sometimes they give their all
to someone else
who can’t give them their all
because they only like what they can’t have.

But it’s too soon, you say —
things might change.
Be patient.
Give it time.

But I’ve loved boys like you before
and they only left me broken
no matter how long I waited
and they never said sorry.

And I’ve loved boys like you before,
who carry treasures within their heart,
but they won’t let me dig deeper to find it
because that’s their private territory.

So I learned to run from boys like you
even though I want to stay
but boys like you don’t want girls like me
and I know this now.

Boys like you want girls like you.
Boys like you ignore girls like me
because they think we’ll always wait.
But girls like me also get tired — and they leave.

Thank you.

@Regrann from @poemsporn_  -  To the people who have been there for me when I was falling in love and canceled many plans for a boy, thank you for sticking around even when I didn’t deserve it.

To the people who have been there for me after getting my heart broken, thank you for giving me support when I was too weak to stand up on my own. Thank you for listening to me rant and weep for months about the same boy and the same story. Thank you for not giving up on me. And thank you for telling me that this boy wasn’t going to be my only love story.
To the people who have been there for me when I picked the wrong college guys to fall in love with, thank you for telling me they weren’t worth it. Thank you for making me still make those mistakes and not judging me for it.

Thank you for not leaving.

To the people who have been there for me when anxiety overtook my brain and I felt myself falling into a rabbit hole. Thank you for showing me compassion, and believing me when I said I was suffering. Thank you for telling me I was going to get through it and meaning it wholeheartedly.

To the people who have seen me try to forget my worries with too much wine or too many kisses that didn’t mean a thing, thank you for telling me to stop.

To the people who have been there for me through every single up and down, thank you for loving me at my worst. Thank you for loving me even when I was a terrible person and when I let you down.

Thank you for loving me even when you didn’t want to and even when I didn’t deserve it.
Thank you for not letting me go through this journey alone. And thank you for being a part of my downfalls and uphill mountain climbs. Thank you for your love when I didn’t feel lovable. Thank you for being my best friends, my cheerleaders and my soulmates. And thank you for being my forever love story that I never had with anyone else.
—@laurenjg5 via @thoughtcatalog
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