Question I chose to dwell into..

I've been really busy these months, I haven't had the time to update my blog. The posts were cross-posted from my multiply.

I really wanted to blog about certain things. Things that keeps bugging my mind for some years now.. I don't know I still feel that there are still no answers to this things yet I insist to dwell on it..

The question of identity was always there. Was I really being myself? Was I performing things the way I wanted it to be?

And there is also the question of faith. Am I faithful? Am I loyal to my God?

The ultimate question was for love. Do I really love Heartthrob? What are the chances that we would end up together (because I prayed for it)? Is he the 'it' for me?

I'll be sharing one of our YM conversations and the short story that he had posted..

Tuesday, 9 October, 2001
Heartthrob is busy (1:11 PM) - tonight i write
katrina (1:11 PM): may blog ka pla?
Heartthrob (1:11 PM): huh?
Heartthrob (1:11 PM): where?
katrina (1:12 PM): joke lng.. kinabahan ka?
Heartthrob (1:12 PM): nah, not really
katrina (1:12 PM): anong sinusulat mo?
Heartthrob (1:13 PM): an artic for jru's newsletter
Heartthrob (1:13 PM): my students asked me to write one
katrina (1:13 PM): ooh.. what about?
Heartthrob(1:16 PM): stuff
Heartthrob (1:16 PM): about my stay and everything
katrina (1:17 PM): hanggang kelan ka ba dun?
Heartthrob(1:17 PM): 'til end of feb
katrina (1:17 PM): ilang hours pt nyo?
Heartthrob (1:19 PM): 300
Heartthrob (1:19 PM): haha
katrina (1:20 PM): patapos na?
katrina (1:20 PM): parang ang bilis..
katrina (1:21 PM): ilang hours a day?
Heartthrob (1:21 PM): tagal nga e
Heartthrob (1:21 PM): officially, 5 hours 20 mins lng ako in a day
katrina (1:22 PM): ah.. akala ko from morning till afternoon ka..
Heartthrob (1:22 PM): oo nga
Heartthrob (1:22 PM): from 7am to 5pm
Heartthrob (1:23 PM): but my official time inside the classroom is just 5.20
Heartthrob(1:23 PM): bale 5hrs40mins break ko
katrina (1:23 PM): sayang yung 5 hrs..
katrina (1:24 PM): sa JRU ka lang nun?
Heartthrob (1:26 PM): madalas
Heartthrob(1:26 PM): bonding with classmates/students
Heartthrob (1:26 PM): sometimes i go to pup
katrina (1:27 PM): so afternoon tlga mga classes mo?
katrina (1:27 PM): i mean sa JRU?
Heartthrob (1:28 PM): no, i have classes at 7am
katrina (1:28 PM): till?
Heartthrob (1:28 PM): 5pm
katrina (1:28 PM): your sched sucks..
Heartthrob (1:34 PM): yah, i know
Heartthrob(1:34 PM): it's because on tuesdays and fridays, i have classes on pup
Heartthrob(1:34 PM): 10:30 to 1:30
Heartthrob (1:35 PM): so they gave me that 4hr break from 9:40 to 1:40
katrina (1:36 PM): eh bakit nakikita kita kpag monday?
Heartthrob(1:36 PM): coz sometimes i go to pup on my break
Heartthrob (1:37 PM): especially on my earlier ojt days
Heartthrob (1:37 PM): i'm not close to my students yet
Heartthrob(1:37 PM): so i have noone to talk to
Heartthrob (1:37 PM): my classmates & i have different scheds
Heartthrob (1:37 PM): and we don't match
katrina (1:38 PM): kpag gabi? nakita kita ng mga ilang mondays sa school..
katrina (1:38 PM): 9pm na ata yun..
Heartthrob(1:39 PM): ah, i have classes at night sa pup
katrina (1:40 PM): ooh.. that explains it..
katrina (1:41 PM): so kamusta ang pagtuturo?
Heartthrob (1:43 PM): masaya naman
Heartthrob(1:43 PM): i enjoy it a lot
katrina (1:43 PM): so go kna magteacher pag graduate?
Heartthrob (1:44 PM): not really
Heartthrob(1:44 PM): we'll see
katrina (1:45 PM): bakit may iba ka pa bang gustong job?
katrina (2:16 PM): ganda nug mga stories..

it was always me that started the conversation and also that was left hanging..