Do you know this feeling wherein you feel so attracted to a guy, i mean, literally, sexually attracted to a guy. I get this a lot. Why? And right now, the temptation is so strong that I can think right. My thoughts are incoherent.
Recently, i had an indecent proposal from a guy friend. I have known him since 2010 and this is when my attraction started. Oh, maybe the Lord said, I cannot take this temptation that time so He took us apart, and I found myself in Law School where I learned that casual hook ups do exist and this is also where I fell in love where I am willing to give my virginity for a hopeless prick!
Anyway, this 2013, I swore that I would take chances. But this risk, I am not sure if I really want to take it. I am not so sure that I want to do it with him. I want to do it for academic purposes, like, having a knowledge of what it feels, how does it work and all that. I am so confused. I know that I shouldn't do it yet. I should do it inside marriage.
I know this is the impatient me talking. I really want to know everything about it. Please Lord, save me from this mess. I am literally on the verge of saying yes to this guy. I know You have created me with an open mind, but please, give me the right answer to this problem. I don't want to complicate things as how complicated they are now, but please, help me Lord. Take me out of this mess.
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