I'm always gonna be soft for you..

That's the problem. I'm always going to be soft for you. I'm always going to want you in my life. Regardless of whether or not I become a lawyer. Or that my family opposes to our relationship if they found out about it. Or where life takes me. I'm always going to want you there in my life. Watching me. Guiding me. Caring for me. Loving me.

And it sucks that I'm scared of wanting you and relying on you because I don't like depending on anyone and adjusting for anyone. I'm scared that you're going to leave me. I fear the day that you don't want me in your life and that you no longer have the patience to try to understand me. I'm scared of losing you. I'm scared that if I don't make it, you're going to leave me. What should I do? I love you. Even when we fight, I still want you. 😔

Sorry.