You are the biggest lesson of 2016.

I have so many reasons to be angry at you, at me, at us. But I don't know what to feel. Of course I want you back. Pero yung thought na pinipilit na kita. Yung ayaw mo na talaga. Yung galit ka sakin. Di ko alam dapat ko maramdaman. If I was so convinced that all I need is acceptance to move on from this, why does it feel like my world crushed down? Bakit parang pinatay mo ko? Ian, ganito ba kasakit yung ginawa ko sayo? Naiintindihan ko na. Hindi galit yung naramdaman mo. Sakit. Dahil parang sinira ko buong pagkatao mo ng biglaan. Yung sobrang sakit gusto mo nalang tapusin lahat para tumigil ang sakit. Ian, sorry. Naiintindihan ko na. And now I understand why you finally had to end it. If it was me, I would have done the same thing. Yet love you from afar and never speak of us again. I can't say sorry enough to rectify the damage. Maybe I will still message/call you regardless if you read or not. I'm sorry. Truly sorry this time.

But my stand still remains. I love you. I will always love you. You are the biggest lesson of 2016.