To the girl I was...

I must have been bitter and angry all these time eventhough I tried staying positive. Sunud sunod na betrayal and defeat from people you never thought would do it. And the people I have never given the time of the day, stood by me in times of pain and stress. Maybe, I haven't gotten over the fact that they meant so much to me and I was just nothing to them. All of these may sound so immature.

I always say I don't care much about so much. But it turned I cared for the wrong things. I know realized, what helps you to let go, move on and move forward is facing the reality that something or someone has hurt you. Pain has no age. All of us can get hurt. And all of us can rise above it. I am grateful for this chapter in my life. It's over now.

As I face a new chapter, I am letting go of everything that is hurting me, of the pain and of the people I have wrongly placed my trust on. I am letting go everything and choosing to rise above it. Thank you!

Happy Birthday..

April 2, nagkita tayo 2 years ago to celebrate your birthday. Di ko na maalala yung mga nangyari but I still think this was the day that we were so in love. 




"Regardless of where you are or who you will be with if we don’t last till the end, I have realized I will truly love you always through heaven and hell. An eternity grateful to fate and God for having you in my life."




Happy birthday! I love you.

Better luck next time..

Breaking down

Hindi ba ko worthy pag-effortan? Naibigay mo na ba lahat kay Val kaya wala ka ng maibigay sakin emotionally? Nagkulang ba ko? Hindi ko ba naiparamdam sayo na mahal kita? Bakit ko 'tong pagdaanan sayo? Sabi mo mahal mo ko at bar lang yung humahadlang satin? Wala na. Tapos na db, nung November pa. Hindi ko na alam. Ang sakit.  Malamang manahimik ka pa rin. Yan lang naman yung willing kang ibigay sakin. At patuloy pa rin ako magtatanong.

Tama na please..

Sa totoo lang, simula nung magreply ka sa message ko kanina, gusto kong bumalik pa rin sayo. Nung narinig kita, gusto ko magmakaawa ulit na bumalik ka na. Hanggang ngayon, kahit madalas ako masaktan dahil lalabas na hindi totoo yung mga sinasabi mo sakin, ikaw pa rin yung binabalik balikan ko.

You will always have a soft spot for me and you always say you love me. Pero di ko naman naramdaman kahit kailan yun. Baka nga, di mo lang maipakita sa paraang mararamdaman ko. Sabi mo pa nga, gusto mo that you can talk to me about everything but there are a lot of times that you have silenced me.

Sabi nga, in love, there's no fear. Kaso, takot na ko sayo. Di ko na alam kung paano maging ako kapag andyan ka. Sobrang sakit nito kc gusto ko na andyan ka lang. Pero parang mas makakabuti sating dalawa pag magkahiwalay.

Sana nga makapagsimula tayo ulit one day. Yung wala na yung sakit at takot ng nakaraan. Kahit magkaibigan nalang. Salamat sa lahat ha. Wag ka na sana sumagot. Naniniwala pa rin ako na baka mahal mo nga ako. Takot nalang ako na baka dumating na yung panahon na hindi na talaga. I love you.

Good bye.

"You're the one I want next to me when my dreams come true, and you're the one I want next to me if they don't."

Today marks the day that I have decided I want you and only you. I even missed my father's birthday because I don't want to be separated from you. I was willing to give up everything just to be with you. I don't regret any of it though because I would do it again granted the circumstances back then. You wanted me then. I was once your queen.

However, I see it now. Love doesn't have to feel that I should compromise my beliefs, especially my family. I admire you for having a strong filial sense. Akala ko strong na yung sakin, di pa pala.

Everything that has happened are due to my weaknesses at hindi ako dapat magalit sayo for having strong values. We are really different people at tapos na yung purpose natin sa buhay ng isat isa. I will always remember our time together as something beautiful but fleeting. Baka tama ka, siguro nga para ako sa iba. Salamat sa lahat. Di man tayo masaya hanggang huli, sana napasaya ko yung buhay mo kahit sandali. I love you. God bless us.

Have a nice life.