Breakdown

Matagal tagal ko na 'tong hinahanap.. paborito namin 'to ng kuya ko.. namimiss ko sya.. Dahil siguro sa bigat ng dibdib ko pero hnd ko nman tlga maiiyak nung mga nakakaraang araw, parang gusto ko nalang tlgang magbreakdown.. Gusto kong umiyak ng umiyak muna pra maging magaan ang dibdib ko.. hnd ko na kcnapapancn kung paano nagiging okay ang mga bgay bgay sa buhay ko tapos biglang babalik.. BREAKDOWN (Mariah Carey) break break down still it breakin' me on down break break down still it bring me on down break break down still it breakin' me on down break break down still it breakin' me on down. Verse 1 mariah: you called yesterday to basically say that you care for me but that you're just not in love immediately i pretended to be feeling similarily and led you to believe i was o.k to just walk away from the one thing that's unyielding and sacred to me CHORUS well i guess i'm trying not to be nonchalant about it and i'm going to extremes to prove i'm fine without you but in reality i'm slowly losing my mind underneath the guise of smile gradually i'm dying inside friends ask me how i feel and i lie convincingly cuz i don't want to reveal the fact that i'm suffering so i wear my disguise til i go home at night and i turn down all the lights and then i break down and cry Verse 2 mariah: so what do you do when somebody so devoted to suddenly just stops loving you and it seems they haven't got a clue of the pain that rejection is putting you through do you cling to your pride and sing "i will survive" (gotta get control, roll, roll, roll on) 4X do you hold on in vain as they as they just slip away CHORUS well i guess i'm trying not to be nonchalant about it and i'm going to extremes to prove i'm fine without you but in reality i'm slowly losing my mind underneath the guise of smile gradually i'm dying inside friends ask me how i feel and i lie convincingly cuz i don't want to reveal the fact that i'm suffering so i wear my disguise til i go home at night and i turn down all the lights and then i break down and cry Interlude Wish: yeah, c' mon, yeah, c' mon, c' mon break break break down roll roll roll on still it breakin' me on down roll roll roll on break break break down roll roll roll on still it breakin' me on down Bridge Wish: better break it down only if you let it everyday the situation is rockin' my mind tryin' to break me down but i won't let it forget it ( forget it) Krayzie: i'll be feelin' like it gonna break me down turnin' me around stressin' me out i'm thinkin it gonna get out and let me release some stress ( stress ) Wish: don't ever wanna feel no pain ( pain ) hoping for the sun but it looks like rain ( rain, rain, rain ) oh, i just wanna maintain Krayzie: yeah, i'm feelin' precious, yo but never the less krayzie won't fall so-ber, is headin' near ( near ) CHORUS well i guess i'm trying not to be nonchalant about it and i'm going to extremes to prove i'm fine without you but in reality i'm slowly losing my mind underneath the guise of smile gradually i'm dying inside friends ask me how i feel and i lie convincingly cuz i don't want to reveal the fact that i'm suffering so i wear my disguise til i go home at night and i turn down the lights and then i break down and cry Repeat 2X ( break break down... down until fade )

Central B Sector Kasangga

A first for this year!

Venue: Magdalena Chapel(1 tricycle ride from pasig palengke)

Attendees:
Community Based- chapter heads, cluster heads, program heads
Campus Based- Core, MV's and program heads
High School Based- Core, HPV's, and program heads
Torch- Household Heads and program heads
SIGA- Core and program heads
Ycom- Crew and program heads
KFC-Cluster kuya's and ate's, program heads

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BUO..

Bakit ka pa NAGMAHAL kung hindi rin lang BUO?

sabi sa I Love Betty knna.. tama nga nman noh.. nagmahal ka pa eh konti lang.. mas mabuti pa yung hindi mo nlng minahal, may tendency kc na mawala yung pagmamahal na yun kung konti lang.. buti nlng BUO ang pagmamahal ng DIYOS.. Ikaw ba, buo dn magmahal?

BUO..

Bakit ka pa MAGMAHAL kung hindi rin lang BUO?

sabi sa I Love Betty knna.. tama nga nman noh.. nagmahal ka pa eh konti lang.. mas mabuti pa yung hindi mo nlng minahal, may tendency kc na mawala yung pagmamahal na yun kung konti lang.. buti nlng BUO ang pagmamahal ng DIYOS.. Ikaw ba, buo dn magmahal?

More L O V E for 2009..

A few days before 2008 ends, I was having an emotional breakdown (?).. I'm thinking about a lot of things. It did overcome my sanity and all I did was to mourn and mourn and grieve and rant.

I said in my previous blog that I can't feel peoples' love to me (or so I implied).. I doubted everybody's love for me, their sincerity, their trust. I mourned. I cried. I grieved. And the other night, I went really crazy about it. I can't really figure out what was really happening to me. I can't put into words what on earth were running in my mind that's really bugging me.

But, praise God, I was able to pick myself up and put some sense into what's really happening me. Thanks to my ever bright household head, KC, I was able to track down where all my doubts came from. I would also want to thank JIll, her blog said everything that I was going through only that I forgot to thank the Lord for everything that I was going through.

After knowing what I felt (thought of, cried about, ranted upon), here's my new year's resolution. This year, I will work on re-opening my heart to all the people (loving or unloving) so that I can feel their hearts more and also, so that they can feel the overflowing love that I have for them, especially the people closer to me.

More LOVE for 2009!!! (quoted from kakay)

Saan ba?

Nakakamiss yung ako. Nakakamiss yung bumalik sa katinuan o yung maging ako lang. Ang dami ko na nakalimutan, ang dami ko na mali, ang dami ko na gusto, ang dami ko nglihim, at ang dami ko hindi nagagawa.

Plano ako ng plano. Isip ako ng isip. Wala naman ako nagagawa. Wala naman ako natatapos. Wala din ako magawa para maging maayos ako. Palagi nalang ako nagmamarunong. Palagi nalang nagkukunwari. palagi nalang nagmamakaawa.

Palagi nalang ayaw ng mga tao sa akin. Palagi nalang akong mali. Palagi nalang ako nageeffort magustuhan ng mga tao. Hindi tumatagal ang friendship. Ang closeness. Palagi nalang ako may kaaway. Palagi nalang naiilang sa akin. Walang instance na wala akong makakasamaan ng loob kapag nagsimula na akong maging totoo sa kanila.

Ako yung may problema? Sino ang totoong nakakakilala sa akin? Ano ang dapat kong maging ugali?

Sana sabihin ng mga tao kung anong mali? Saan ako mali? Bakit ako mali? Sana sa una palang sabihin na, na ayaw nila sa akin. Ayoko ng in difference. Ayoko mag-isa. Ayoko umasa. Nawawalan ako ng tiwala sa sarili.

Anong nakakainis? Anong mali? Anong gusto?