Day 5 of Journalling

Today, I noticed that I have become "fat" again. I was obese but I am still overweight but I noticed today that my fats are more noticeable. It began while I was scanning through my photos for the photos of the twins together. I had to go through my pictures through months. My overweight wasn't noticeable in April. I am so obsessed with my appearance, not really about being narcissistic. However, I wanted to look and be my best for the future. I wanted to live a healthy and full life that is why I wanted to slim down a bit. My body measure goal is to fit in a medium size. I am currently at extra-large. I don't know why I am having a hard time slimming down now. I have been doing what I did before. I think I have to go to the doctor to find out. But right now, I don't have the money yet.

When I went downstairs to eat, Kathleen asked me how old is she now. It's their birthday today since she's a twin. She has a twin sister Katherine. Kathleen has been the closest to me over all of the four siblings. She always wants to play and talk to me even though I am not cable. I bought them a cake since their dad said they'll have a cake when they are 7 years old. This is my gift to them even though I don't have money or even work yet.

I should be time batching and organizing my schedule. I saw Milanote in the video that I watched on Youtube. It's becoming unproductive for me because I have so many tabs opened and I tend to change through tabs and then forget that I was doing something. I hope this app helps me focus.

I haven't done brainstorming yet.

This is frustrating. I do not know what to do or put in the Milanote. I just have all these ideas that I wanted to be doing but I don't know where to start.