Day 7 of Journalling

Today, I noticed more of the things that annoy me. I hate meeting people accidentally especially those that know me from my childhood. Earlier this day, I have gone to mass and as I was heading there, I was stopped by someone who is friends with my mother. I hate that she asked me if I am a lawyer and if I was the one who took up law. She also asked what my sister finished in college. In the church, I met some schoolmate's mother. I think she doesn't want to talk to me either so I am grateful for that. It just annoys me to have to be reminded of my pasts when I have not started with my future. I hated having to explain why I went to law school, why I am not yet a lawyer, and why I do not want to be one anymore. It is just that I hate small talks. Like earlier at mass, I was thinking if my schoolmate's mother will hold my hand during the Ama Namin. My anxiety is high whenever I accidentally see people, like, I am not prepared for this. I always feel drained all the time whenever I see people I do not feel like seeing, especially, spending time with people that I do not want to spend time with.